Confessions...

I'm in the back seat of my parent's car with an 11 & 8 year old laying on me while my 17 year old is enjoying a nice nap sprawled across the 3td seat all by herself. We are on the second leg of our 16 hour road trip. Since I have a little time, I decided to use the one hand I have free, on the arm that's not asleep from being used as a pillow, to write. I am going to go ahead and apologize ahead of time for any errors as I am not super gifted at typing with my thumb. I confess there is a part of me that would like to be on a beach somewhere, drinking out of coconut cups, staring at the man of my dreams... you know the one who loves and adores me and treats me so well that even the best romantic comedy couldn't compare. (Don't laugh he's out there.) Yeah sappy sounding I know. For those who know me well, me talking about flowers, beaches, and romance may come as a shock. I know that doesn't really seem like my norm, but deep down inside, there is a hopless romantic.. a woman who refuses to truly accept the fact that people just don't stay together anymore... that believes that relationships like my Grandad & GG had still exist... that true love and 50th anniversaries are still very real possibilities. Yes I was one of those little girls who had "the dream guy list". I made it in Jr High and I still remember at least most of what was on it. You ready to see it? Here goes: taller than me, dark skin, dark wavy hair, drives a truck, opens doors for me, funny, honest, likes dogs, rides horses, wears boots, & of course the most impotant- has a cute butt. Sounds to me like I was looking for a country boy... well, I'm still lookin. Lol Reality is 6 years ago, I got left. 3 kids and 12 years of struggle and I couldn't make it last. I think it's time for confession #2. I am thankful for those struggles! If I were given the chance to go back and have a "do over", I would not change a thing. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't hard. It has been very hard. There have been times that I have locked myself in my room and turned on music just so my kids wouldn't hear me cry, but I know those hard times made me stronger. I am a better person than I was 6 years ago. I actually like myself! I am very proud of my life, my kids, and myself! So while a part of me wishes I was on the beach, all of the rest of me is so grateful to be in this back seat all bunched up with these amazing kids! There is absolutely no place I would rather be. AND just for the record, "Mr. Amazing" does exist... I'm raising him! He opens doors, he's funny, honest, genuine, and respectful! (I have 2 pretty amazing daughters too!) I am so blessed and I will never take those blessings for granted! I'm enjoying today, July 17, 2012.. I know it's the only one I will ever get! Wish me LOVE because I definitely wish it for you! <3 B

NEW SHAKE IDEA!!!

Tried this and love it!!

Strawberry Meal Replacement 

1 T of peanut butter

Water

1/4 c silk milk

4 large strawberries

Blend it up!  I can't think of a name for it, but it is super filling and yummy!  (I use all natural peanut butter btw) 

Have an amazing June 1, 2012- remember it's the only one you will ever get!

Wish me love!

<3 B

Holy Cow It's Day Five!

I am still breathing, walking, and at least half-thinking on day 5!  LOL.  Insanity has been really hard, but for a person like me who needs to be told what to do to get started on something like this, it's been GREAT!  I am not going to lie to you, there are parts of it that I just go through the motions, but I won't let myself quit!  One of my biggest assets (and biggest set backs) is I am not good a quitting!

Anyone who knows me knows I stay busy...  productive busy not just busy - sorry I had to make that clear because there is a huge difference!  Working out and eating right is extremely hard for me to keep consistent. This is definitely a learning experience for me all the way around.  I am using Advocare products to help me along the way.  Of course I am doing my own thing because I am stubborn like that, but I need to know what works for me!  I believe in the products I sell, and I want to be able to tell people, "this is how some people use them and it has worked for them, and this is how I have used them, and it's worked for me!"  AND just FYI they are working for me!  :)

On  a perfect day this is what I do:

*Wake up and take 2 Catalyst with a Rehydrate/Spark mixture (I like Fruit Punch and Cherry mixed)

)*Work out with Shaun T (Yeah I have a crush don't laugh) - Water is the drink of choice during his hideously short water breaks!

*Take my Coreplex (They are awesome because I buy one multi-vitamin and my whole family takes them)

*Drink a Meal Replacement Shake- I always add things to mine just because I like them that way, but they are extremely good mixed with just water!  Strawberries, fat free yogurt, and strawberry Meal Replacement is a family fave!  I also love LOVE love, vanilla Meal Replacement, frozen peaches, fat free yogurt, and cinnamon.  Oh my goodness it is heavenly!  I have also seen a little research about cinnamon being good for you..  http://altmedicine.about.com/od/cinnamon/a/cinnamon.htm and I have to say that just makes it even more yummy!  

* Sensible lunch and dinner healthy snacks- lots of veggies and fruit-  AND best part of all is I GET TO GRILL A TON!  :) YEP I love my grill!

* Also, if I start feeling extremely hungry and I know I shouldn't be..  yes I do that often..  I take 2 Leptilean to help me out. 

This is what is working for me-  it is what fits into my current lifestyle.- You can check out my Advocare products at: 

www.advocare.com/11112702

  

Reality is I mess up-  Lat night I took Cyd out to eat at Abuelo's.  I ate some amazing Enchiladas!  YUMMY!  And felt a little bad about cleaning most of my plate,  BUT they were so soo good!  

Last but not least, I got to talk to my friend Shellee-  She's pretty amazing I can't lie! I call her my voice of reason.  She always makes me feel better.  She's that person in my life that never tears me down, but is always honest.  Last night she made me realize I need to start looking in a different mirror!  One that shows all of the great things I have to offer instead of what some may consider baggage.  LOL if Shellee thinks I am   special, there must be some truth to it!  

That's enough for today, May 31, 2012.  Enjoy it, it's the only one you will ever get!

Wish me LOVE because I definitely wish it for you!

<3 "B"

All in all not a bad day! 

Captain's Log - Day 2

Since I start my second job tomorrow, I thought that I would post a quick update on how things are going..
A couple of things I have figured out that I need to work on.

1) I need to plan a little bit better.  I took my two little ones to meet my dad this morning and we ended up stopping at Burger King because they were hungry.  OK so I make the "sensible" choice and eat the English muffin sandwich.  Yeah I know that's still not at all healthy, but I saw on eat this not that it was at least better than the croissants and biscuits.  BUT then when my kids didn't finish their hash browns it took everything in me not to finish them off.  Dang me and my obsession with not wasting things.  UGH!  We actually threw food away.  I believe that is the first time ever.  So my answer to this dilemma..  next time don't order the meal. 

2) I have also noticed that in an effort to get ahead on the dishes and preparing for the next what ever it is that needs to be done, I eat rather quickly.  The second thing I need to do is SLOW DOWN!  That's a hard one for me!  I just always feel like I have to be a step ahead so that I don't fall behind.

I did Insanity on my day off.. I wanted to get started out right.  Oh yeah and I promised myself that no matter what I would to 100 jumping jacks every day. Don't ask me why?  I just figured it was something that I would never have an excuse not to do.. it's too simple.

Happy Memorial Day!  Be sure to hug a soldier today!!

Enjoy today, May 28, 2012.  It's the only one you will ever get!

Wish me LOVE because I certainly wish it for you!

<3 B


PS.  My cousin is going a year with out fast food.  I think he's crazy, but inspiring!!  You can view his blog at the link below-  Check out what he is writing about :)

http://holdthewholedarnvaluemeal.blogspot.com/2012/05/challenge-alert-moving-day.html

Starting Over.... AGAIN! :)

Today is an amazing day!  Wanna know why?  I am alive and kicking!  It's crazy because just last night I was feeling pretty down.  I live every day of my life knowing how truly Blessed I am, but sometimes it doesn't take much to get to me. I hate getting let down.  I know it's part of life, but it's part of life that I don't like.  Soooo...  what do I do to handle disappointment?  Well, I stay busy!  My house is clean, my yard will be done soon, and I did a little Yoga this morning.  And every now and then I cry a little, but I don't stay down long.

OK the point of this blog is to let you in on something that I am doing..  It's summer and that's my time to get back in shape. I know, I know I do this every summer.  If I would just stay healthy during the rest of the year I wouldn't have to do this, and maybe this is the year I remember that eating right and exercising on a consistent basis make me feel better.  We will see ;)

Today is officially DAY 1.  I was told that it takes 27 days to make or break a habit.  Let's see if I can break an old habit and make a new one.  I will try to blog what I am eating and what I am doing at least a couple of times a week..  I would say everyday, but I like to keep my word and I know better.

Here we go:
So far today- 15 minutes of YOGA.
Breakfast: ADVOCARE Meal replacement shake (vanilla) made with water, 1/2 cup of frozen peaches (NO SUGAR), and a teaspoon of cinnamon.  It was super yummy!!!

We are going to do chicken and veggies on the grill for later and I can't lie, I don't know what else is on the menu just yet.  Yeah I know I have a little more planning to do!

Tony and I will be doing Insanity tonight in the garage. We have actually been doing it a couple of times a week already.  It's not too bad, but I definitely know that I have worked out.

That's enough for now..

I will enjoy today, May 27, 2012 it's the only one I will ever get!

Wish me love because I certainly wish it for you!

<3 B

Just a thought...

Truth is, sometimes life just kinda sucks..  Now before you go thinking that this is going to be a negative post, just remember who you are dealing with here.  I am not generally a negative person, so stay with me for a minute...

Have you ever heard someone say something like..  "If you think your life is bad, look around.  Someone always has it worse."  Or if something bad happens to someone else, you look at their situation and determine that now your life is in perspective?  I have and I have.  I always try to look at things and find that silver lining.  (Notice I said "try".)  It's not always easy though.

I live my life knowing that I am truly blessed!  My world revolves around my amazing kids!  They are my life for sure!  But it doesn't mean I don't get hurt!  I trust people a little too much and yeah you guessed it, I get hurt a lot.  I am one of those crazy people who want to believe that people in general are good.  I want to believe that if you say I will be there, you mean it!    If you say I'll do it, you do it! If you say I love you, you show it! To me that doesn't seem like such a tall order.  Each one of those things has a very simple solution to avoid any and all confusion... Are your ready for me to drop some major knowledge on you?  OK here goes..  the answer to the worlds problems ( ok not really, but it would certainly help a lot).  If you won't be there, don't say it!  If you won't do it, don't say you will!  AND most importantly..  if you are not willing to show someone that you love them, DON'T SAY YOU DO!  I challenge anyone to counter my solution..  because I absolutely do not believe that anyone can argue against it.

What I have learned is that when I do look around I realize that there are things that others have had to deal with that if I had to deal with, I would end up in a corner somewhere, in the fetal position, crying.  On the other hand people on the outside looking in see some of the things I have had to go through and feel the same way.  What's hard for me to deal with would be a walk in the park to someone else.  God gives me the strength to deal with the things I have to deal with.  When those little things happen that cause me to believe that  life kinda sucks sometimes, if I go to God, I make it through-  AND yes I find the silver lining.

If someone hurts me, I just make adjustments and keep going. If life seems unfair, I just keep my head up and wait for my turn.  It's just how you do things.  Life is not always cakes and roses (or in my case wings and football)..  nope sometimes is actually does make you feel like you want to give up.  People do things to you that break your heart.  There are a lot of selfish folks out there.  Shoot, at times I am one of them, but you just keep going.  God will never give you a mountain with out preparing you for the climb and giving you the appropriate gear!


I am about to go take a walk around the block to clear my head..

Don't forget to appreciate today, Mother's Day, May 13, 2012, it's the only one you will ever get!

Wish me LOVE because I certainly wish it for you! <3

Change is coming...

Ever just known that change is coming even though you have no idea what it is?  That's how I feel right now! It's frustrating having to wait. ..  can't lie, but what are you going to do?  I have had an "unsettled" feeling for quite some time now.  Not sad, not depressed, not even disappointed, just unsettled.  I realized that I have been searching for answers in the wrong places.  I appreciate what my friends and family do for me!  Love that they are there for me any time I need them, but this unsettled feeling will only go away if I  look inside for answers.

Prayer is a powerful thing... if you use it!  I pray daily and love my time with God, but my prayers have been lacking the faith to back them up.  You hear you are not worthy enough and you see people's actions that remind you  of things from your past, if you aren't careful you start to believe it that you will never be good enough.

I asked a friend of mine this question today..  "At what point do you stop putting everyoneelses' happy in front of your happy; trying to make up for past mistakes?"  He wasn't sure of an answer.  At first neither was I, but then it hit me.  YOU CAN NEVER MAKE UP FOR YOUR PAST MISTAKES!  You can only ask for forgiveness and let God help you move forward!  I am tired to trying to make something right that went wrong long ago.  I am giving up my guilt right now!   It's in the past and I have lived for a very long time trying to make things right!

It's time to let it go!  Now I know I will struggle, because this is something that I have held on to for a good part of my life..  it's become habit and habits are hard to break, but I know I am ready..  I want to see what God has in store for me and I am tired of blocking my blessings.  Fact is, it's just plain wearing me out.

I appreciate today..  March 4, 2012.  It's the only one I will ever get!

Wish me LOVE because I certainly wish it for you!
"B"

I'm calling YOU out!

I am just going to come out with it...  this is a RANT!  It is straight up just me getting things off of my chest.  So if that bothers you, I suggest you stop reading and wait til my next post!

Guys..  Listen up!  I am calling you out!  You know who you are!  Men in my life who have done something to try to bring me down or just make me feel stupid.

Mr. talk to me on the phone every night for a few months and then forget who I am.

Mr. "Hey can you send me a pic?"

Mr. cheat on me.

Mr. drive 7 hours to take me out...  talk to me for a month straight.  Calling me nightly and talking for hours..  Mr. fly me down to see you, take me out, show me a great time..  call me 3 times when I am on my way back home, and again when I get home and talk to me for hours...  AND then forget who I am.

Mr. "I like you, but you were married to ________, so I can't talk to you."

Mr. "If you were just 10 years younger."

Mr. "No my wife and I aren't really together..  we just live in the same house.. you know for the kids sake."

Mr. "Oh, you have THREEEE kids?"

Mr. "hey where's my sexy pic"?

Mr. hang out with me, act like my friend, and then ask me when I was going to suck your wwwoooo hoooo...  can't even bring myself to repeat that one.

Mr. manner less who feels the need to make rude remarks to me every chance you get.

Mr. "I just got you a great deal on a car..  when are we going to do it?"

Mr. call me names and try to talk me into believing I deserved it.

Mr. "Hey can I get a sexy pic...  the one on Facebook is nice, but you aren't naked."

Mr. "Wanna go on a date?"  (When we get there...  I end up having to pay.)

Mr. "I just don't understand why you're not attracted to me like all the other girls are?"

Mr. "Hey you gonna send me that pic"?

That's all I can think of right now, but dang when I read back over that I realized that it is by the grace of God that I don't hate men! 

Thank God for the men out there that love and respect women!  The men like my dad who would walk through fire to make sure the women in his life were taken care of.  Thank God for the men who realize that the best thing you can do for your children is treat their mother with absolute respect.  Thank God for then men who will happily take on a woman like me with "THREEEE" kids!  Thank God that there are good men out there..   Even though my sky has been a little clouded with the "smog" that has blown my way...  I know eventually the clouds will clear and a GREAT man will appear that respects me and treats me the way I am supposed to be treated!

Until then, I will continue to enjoy everyday that I am blessed with, including today February 12, 2012 because it's the only one I will ever get!

Wish me LOVE, because I definitely wish it for you!

<3 "B"

Why do they do that ish...

Why do people feel the need to try and make others feel less than their worth?  I see it all the time.. heck I see it happen to me all the time!  I've been called names, lied to, put down, you get the point, but what I don't understand is WHY?  Honestly, do you know really know me?  People who take the time to really get to know me know that I have a heart as big as Dallas.  I would give you my last dollar and the shirt off my back.  I do separate myself from people, but I would never wish anything bad on anyone, and I would never say "no" to anyone in need!  So why is it that people feel the need to try and make me feel small?

Wonderful thing about being older.......

.......is that.......

if you live life with an open mind, you learn from your experiences.  I am older- doesn't bother me at all!  My opinion is that I am in my prime!  LOL  I feel good and I have learned a lot about people.  ( I am still learning don't get me wrong.)  The one thing that I am 100% positive about is that you can never build your own worth by putting others down!!   Sooo...  why not just spend your effort building people up?  BELIEVE me a positive person who encourages the people around them is worth way more than someone who breaks people down! 

"In any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing. The worst thing you can do is nothing."

~ Theodore Roosevelt

Just my other thoughts for today, February 9, 2012.  Enjoy it; it's the only one you will ever get!

Wish me LOVE!

"B"

Advocare- We Build Champions!

Ok... here we go!

I know it has been a while since I have posted, but quite honestly life has been super busy!  No complaints at all, I love my full life!  I am sure you are just dying to know what's been going on...  right?

Well here ya go..

I started selling Advocare a couple of months ago and quite honestly I went into it with some hesitation and my usual doubt.  BUT I have to say, my attitude was quickly changed!  Don't worry this is not a sales pitch...  just my normal ramblings about stuff that's going on in my world.  I have my Advocare products that I refuse to go with out and my daughter now has her's. 

Track season has started and Cydney has her first meet tomorrow!  She's super excited because it happens to be at THE UNIVERSITY OF OKLAHOMA!  BOOMER...

Saturday night is the Green Country Roller Girls first home bout!!  So excited to be able to support them!  Great group of ladies.  I am a vendor and will have an Advocare booth.  If you get the chance you should come check out some awesome derby and while you are there come and see me!  I can hook you up with some Spark!  (That's my favorite Advocare product, oh yeah and the Rehydrate, and the MNS, and the Catalyst..  ok the list goes on!) 

Shelby will be starting softball soon..  She's on the BA Attitude!  Track is Cydney's "thing".. Football is Tony's "thing"..  and it looks like softball may be Shelby's "thing"!

Personally, I am still trying to figure it all out!  Maybe one day I will figure out what my "thing" is.  LOL. Being a Mom, teaching, Advocare...  I have a lot on my plate!  BUT I AM LOVIN' EVERY MINUTE OF IT!

Now don't forget to appreciate today, 02/19/2012,  it's the only one you will ever get!

Wish me LOVE~ Because I definitely wish it for you!

"B"