Showing posts with label blessings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label blessings. Show all posts

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Just a thought...

Truth is, sometimes life just kinda sucks..  Now before you go thinking that this is going to be a negative post, just remember who you are dealing with here.  I am not generally a negative person, so stay with me for a minute...

Have you ever heard someone say something like..  "If you think your life is bad, look around.  Someone always has it worse."  Or if something bad happens to someone else, you look at their situation and determine that now your life is in perspective?  I have and I have.  I always try to look at things and find that silver lining.  (Notice I said "try".)  It's not always easy though.

I live my life knowing that I am truly blessed!  My world revolves around my amazing kids!  They are my life for sure!  But it doesn't mean I don't get hurt!  I trust people a little too much and yeah you guessed it, I get hurt a lot.  I am one of those crazy people who want to believe that people in general are good.  I want to believe that if you say I will be there, you mean it!    If you say I'll do it, you do it! If you say I love you, you show it! To me that doesn't seem like such a tall order.  Each one of those things has a very simple solution to avoid any and all confusion... Are your ready for me to drop some major knowledge on you?  OK here goes..  the answer to the worlds problems ( ok not really, but it would certainly help a lot).  If you won't be there, don't say it!  If you won't do it, don't say you will!  AND most importantly..  if you are not willing to show someone that you love them, DON'T SAY YOU DO!  I challenge anyone to counter my solution..  because I absolutely do not believe that anyone can argue against it.

What I have learned is that when I do look around I realize that there are things that others have had to deal with that if I had to deal with, I would end up in a corner somewhere, in the fetal position, crying.  On the other hand people on the outside looking in see some of the things I have had to go through and feel the same way.  What's hard for me to deal with would be a walk in the park to someone else.  God gives me the strength to deal with the things I have to deal with.  When those little things happen that cause me to believe that  life kinda sucks sometimes, if I go to God, I make it through-  AND yes I find the silver lining.

If someone hurts me, I just make adjustments and keep going. If life seems unfair, I just keep my head up and wait for my turn.  It's just how you do things.  Life is not always cakes and roses (or in my case wings and football)..  nope sometimes is actually does make you feel like you want to give up.  People do things to you that break your heart.  There are a lot of selfish folks out there.  Shoot, at times I am one of them, but you just keep going.  God will never give you a mountain with out preparing you for the climb and giving you the appropriate gear!


I am about to go take a walk around the block to clear my head..

Don't forget to appreciate today, Mother's Day, May 13, 2012, it's the only one you will ever get!

Wish me LOVE because I certainly wish it for you! <3

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Comfortable in my dysfunction….

Wow! Am I really? I read this today and I have to admit, it stuck in my head. I don’t want to be dysfunctional and I certainly don’t want to find comfort in it!

Let me make a few things clear.. My life is NOT bad! I have 3 amazing kids. We live in a nice house with a nice back yard and plenty of food in the pantry. We live just above pay check to pay check, but I have a good steady job and we make it alright.

Why then did this quote get to me? Not because of my outside world, but because of my inside world: the world that very few people have had the chance to enter into. My kids know I am crazy, but they love me anyway. They have to; I feed them, clothe them, and give them a house to live in. (I do believe they would love me even if I didn’t though- like I said they are pretty amazing kids!) Other than that, not too many people out there know the real me. Which brings me to why the quote got to me-> Does not letting people know really know me make me dysfunctional?
Hmmmmm? I have to tell you in my mixed up world not letting people get to know me makes me smart. It keeps me from getting hurt and it makes me not have to deal with drama. BUT the down side of it is it closes me off from people who may actually care about me.
Not too sure where this one is going so I am going to stop writing now. Crazy thing is it’s taken me 3 days to write this much. I am thinking that this must have some type of meaning to me or it wouldn’t be in my head so much. Maybe I will figure it out later- for now value today May 17, 2011, it’s the only one you will ever get!

Friday, April 15, 2011

Today is a good day!

Hey- Hey! I am feeling really good today! Crazy how that works, huh? One day you feel like you don’t want to get out of bed and the next you are on top of the world. What made me feel so good today..? Well nothing out of the ordinary. I woke up after tossing and turning and staring at the ceiling fan most of the night. I got dressed and ready for work. Got my kids up and ready to go. Noticed that I didn’t finish the laundry and the kitchen cabinets could have been wiped off better.

I got to school just pretty much like normal and had to immediately deal with a run away and another potentially “bad” situation. More paper work, more parent / police contact; not really the makings of a good day.. unless I can just realize that that’s my life and even though on the outside looking in, my life doesn’t look fabulous to most, my life is pretty great to me! No I don’t have a significant other to wake up to everyday, but I don’t have a significant other to answer to every day either. AND I do have 3 amazing kiddos to wake up to! Some months we live pay check to pay check, but other months we have a little extra cash to play with. My life is not hard- sometimes it’s a little stressful, but absolutely nothing that outweighs my BLESSINGS!

Sure I want more- who doesn’t? God didn’t create us to sit on our tails and watch the world go by.. But I am also very content with all of the amazing things that God has BLESSED me with right now. One day I will have it all… Someone will see me for who I am and LOVE me just because I am me. Until then I am going to keep working toward my goals and loving the life that I live today April 15, 2011!

My son and I have been P90X-ing it lately! He’s a pretty real trainer! I think he’s got a future in it for sure! We will see where I end up at by summer.. I want to wear a swim suit!  Maybe even dare I say it... a bikini! ;0p