Church was as usual- AWESOME today! Pastor Watts has a gift! He has an insight that allows him to know the needs of the people he is preaching to. Right now is he preaching about how to “Run your race.” He keeps talking about 2011 being the best year of your life. Now I consider my self a fairly positive person. Yeah I have my flaws, but I’m not really a “Negative Nelly”. My thought “fake it till you feel it.” Hear me out on this…
I am not telling you not to be who you are. Everyone should be real with their feelings and emotions. What I am saying is in some instances where you are not feelin it, if you smile and keep telling yourself that it will happen, I believe that most times, it happens!
OK- I have some house cleaning to do so this one will have to be continued later today… But I wanted your thoughts on the following statement: We should have a “spirit of expectance” when it comes to God. Don’t think “handouts” here, think like a child waiting for Christmas. Think waiting for your first child to be born, gifts, excitement, and all of the emotion and good things that go along with something you’ve been believing in coming to pass.
Enjoy today Sunday, January 23, 2011. It’s the only one you will ever get! I will be back when the dishes and laundry are all done.
-Rebekah
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Go to the mattresses…
If you are familiar with the movie The Godfather , you have probably heard the phrase “go to the mattresses”. It simply means to prepare for battle. In times of war, Italian families would vacate their homes and rent apartments in safer areas. In order to protect themselves they would hire soldiers to sleep on mattresses on the floor.
What battles are you preparing for?
We are all fighting some type of battle. Some people struggle with weight, others with depression, and others loneliness.. Some people struggle with all three and then some. The list is endless. It does seem hopeless, but I can’t help but believe that no matter what the struggle there is a bigger picture, a way to the surface for a drowning soul.
I went to the store tonight. Didn’t really have anything to get; just needed to get out of the house. It’s a lonely night and with out my 3 kids, this house seems very empty. When I was checking out, a beautiful woman probably in her 50’s began talking to me while she was ringing up and bagging my groceries. Most of what was said was just normal chit chat.. It wasn’t until I picked up the last bag that she said something that caught my attention. She said, “You have to know that there’s a greater picture. You just have to wait it out child. You just have to wait it out.” Now I so wanted to ask her what it was she was referring to, but she had already begun scanning the people’s things that were in line behind me. What did she mean? I didn’t say anything to her that would lead her to make that statement. I am still wondering, I can’t lie.
It definitely got me thinking. One of the biggest battles I fight is with patience. I see what I want and I go after it, whether I am ready for what ever it is or not. Deep down I know that God is in control, I know that He will never give me more than I can handle. Shoot, that is easy to deal with. BUT I also know that God will never give me anything that I am not ready to have. THAT’s the hard part! I know exactly what I want! I can see it in front of me just out of my reach, and I can’t have it. That’s my battle, accepting that I have to wait. Well.. I hear that the first step to recovery it admitting you have a problem. Now here’s the question: How do I prepare and fight his battle?
Instead of placing a horse head in my bed, God placed a beautifully, knowledgeable, 50- something woman in front of me. Believe me I am grateful! I don’t think I could have dealt with waking up to a horse head. One day things will all fall into place- I BELIEVE that with all my heart! Just ready for “waiting for great things” not to be such a battle. I am just so so ready! UGH!
January 22, 2011 is almost over.. Go on and enjoy it, because it’s the only one you will ever get! Good night and sleep well so that you will wake up ready to "go to the mattresses!"
What battles are you preparing for?
We are all fighting some type of battle. Some people struggle with weight, others with depression, and others loneliness.. Some people struggle with all three and then some. The list is endless. It does seem hopeless, but I can’t help but believe that no matter what the struggle there is a bigger picture, a way to the surface for a drowning soul.
I went to the store tonight. Didn’t really have anything to get; just needed to get out of the house. It’s a lonely night and with out my 3 kids, this house seems very empty. When I was checking out, a beautiful woman probably in her 50’s began talking to me while she was ringing up and bagging my groceries. Most of what was said was just normal chit chat.. It wasn’t until I picked up the last bag that she said something that caught my attention. She said, “You have to know that there’s a greater picture. You just have to wait it out child. You just have to wait it out.” Now I so wanted to ask her what it was she was referring to, but she had already begun scanning the people’s things that were in line behind me. What did she mean? I didn’t say anything to her that would lead her to make that statement. I am still wondering, I can’t lie.
It definitely got me thinking. One of the biggest battles I fight is with patience. I see what I want and I go after it, whether I am ready for what ever it is or not. Deep down I know that God is in control, I know that He will never give me more than I can handle. Shoot, that is easy to deal with. BUT I also know that God will never give me anything that I am not ready to have. THAT’s the hard part! I know exactly what I want! I can see it in front of me just out of my reach, and I can’t have it. That’s my battle, accepting that I have to wait. Well.. I hear that the first step to recovery it admitting you have a problem. Now here’s the question: How do I prepare and fight his battle?
Instead of placing a horse head in my bed, God placed a beautifully, knowledgeable, 50- something woman in front of me. Believe me I am grateful! I don’t think I could have dealt with waking up to a horse head. One day things will all fall into place- I BELIEVE that with all my heart! Just ready for “waiting for great things” not to be such a battle. I am just so so ready! UGH!
January 22, 2011 is almost over.. Go on and enjoy it, because it’s the only one you will ever get! Good night and sleep well so that you will wake up ready to "go to the mattresses!"
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Eating healthy stinks…
So my friend Kortney talked me into (ok she practically forced me into ;) going on a diet with her. Not that I don’t need to eat better, just that the whole idea of a “diet” makes me nauseous.
We are doing the “Flat Belly Diet”. It’s not really all that bad. I am learning a ton of stuff, and even dare I say it…. COOKING! Not just cooking, but cooking well! Today I have had Oatmeal with bananas and pecans, a muffin (yes homemade), a cheesy penne pasta spinach salad with pesto sauce, and red grapes. The day is only half-way over!
What I don’t like about it, it’s a diet. Ugh! I hate that word! What I like about it, I never get hungry! I love that! If I do it right and eat my “MUFUs” I stay full, and no lie, I feel better; not so tired and so on. What I "didn’t" like about it.. I had to CHANGE. YUCK! (Notice I said “didn’t”—I am S-L-O-W-L-Y learning to like this part of it.)
I am not big on change! Don’t get me wrong I like to try new things, but I usually try them and then go right back to my old habits. I like my comfort zone!
So questions for today: How do I make those changes? How do I get out of my comfort zone? Well.. here is what happened to me. God placed people who LOVE and CARE for me in my life. When I moved to Broken Arrow, I was dead set on keeping with some of my old ways and who should come along but Mrs. Kortney. Not only did she force me to come out of my shell a little bit and go on a dreaded diet with her, but she also reminds me daily that she’s not going anywhere. Thankfully I am stuck with her no matter how hard I try to mess things up! There are a few other people like that in my life now and just between you and me, I really kinda like having them around.
Opening up is hard as heck for me.. well except when it comes to writing. So there ya go, that’s me for today 01/20/2011. Enjoy your day because it’s the only one you will ever get!
We are doing the “Flat Belly Diet”. It’s not really all that bad. I am learning a ton of stuff, and even dare I say it…. COOKING! Not just cooking, but cooking well! Today I have had Oatmeal with bananas and pecans, a muffin (yes homemade), a cheesy penne pasta spinach salad with pesto sauce, and red grapes. The day is only half-way over!
What I don’t like about it, it’s a diet. Ugh! I hate that word! What I like about it, I never get hungry! I love that! If I do it right and eat my “MUFUs” I stay full, and no lie, I feel better; not so tired and so on. What I "didn’t" like about it.. I had to CHANGE. YUCK! (Notice I said “didn’t”—I am S-L-O-W-L-Y learning to like this part of it.)
I am not big on change! Don’t get me wrong I like to try new things, but I usually try them and then go right back to my old habits. I like my comfort zone!
So questions for today: How do I make those changes? How do I get out of my comfort zone? Well.. here is what happened to me. God placed people who LOVE and CARE for me in my life. When I moved to Broken Arrow, I was dead set on keeping with some of my old ways and who should come along but Mrs. Kortney. Not only did she force me to come out of my shell a little bit and go on a dreaded diet with her, but she also reminds me daily that she’s not going anywhere. Thankfully I am stuck with her no matter how hard I try to mess things up! There are a few other people like that in my life now and just between you and me, I really kinda like having them around.
Opening up is hard as heck for me.. well except when it comes to writing. So there ya go, that’s me for today 01/20/2011. Enjoy your day because it’s the only one you will ever get!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I get it! Oh wait, no I don't.
Hopefully I am not the only one who is constantly asking the following question… Ok God, what exactly are you trying to tell me? Sometimes I pray and ask for answers and God answers right away in a way that there is absolutely NO chance I could miss it! The minute I read the verse in the Bible, or the minute my friend makes that encouraging comment; I know right away that is the answer straight from God.
Other times I don’t get an answer at all. Well, at least not the answer I asked for and certainly not as quickly as I would have liked. Of course I don’t figure out that I wasn’t supposed to know the answer until later on when I am reminded that God really does know what he’s doing. He knows me way better than I could ever know myself. He knows what answers I am ready for and what answers need to wait.
What I am struggling with is the times when I feel like God is trying to tell me something and I am just not pickin’ up on what He’s puttin’ down. I have so many things in my head and I pray and ask for guidance, but sometimes I am just not sure what path to follow. Now deep down inside, I know that the struggle is really with what I want versus what God wants me to do.
Here’s the question: How do I truly know the difference?
Today is January 19, 2011! Enjoy it to the fullest, because it’s the only one you will ever get!
Other times I don’t get an answer at all. Well, at least not the answer I asked for and certainly not as quickly as I would have liked. Of course I don’t figure out that I wasn’t supposed to know the answer until later on when I am reminded that God really does know what he’s doing. He knows me way better than I could ever know myself. He knows what answers I am ready for and what answers need to wait.
What I am struggling with is the times when I feel like God is trying to tell me something and I am just not pickin’ up on what He’s puttin’ down. I have so many things in my head and I pray and ask for guidance, but sometimes I am just not sure what path to follow. Now deep down inside, I know that the struggle is really with what I want versus what God wants me to do.
Here’s the question: How do I truly know the difference?
Today is January 19, 2011! Enjoy it to the fullest, because it’s the only one you will ever get!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Why do we do this?
Quick question- Do you feel blessed? My answer is absolutely! My next question would be, then why do we want more? Ok- I am a firm believer in the thought that you should never settle. Always work just a little harder. Continue to set goals and strive to reach them. That's not exactly the "more" I am talking about.
I'm talking about having an abundance of blessings and loving and appreciating those blessings, but still not feeling at peace. Sometimes I honestly feel guilty that I feel that way. God has blessed me beyond what I ever deserved, so why do I find myself searching for more?
I guess that's the million dollar question.
Good Night! Enjoy today June 27, it's the only one you will ever get!
I'm talking about having an abundance of blessings and loving and appreciating those blessings, but still not feeling at peace. Sometimes I honestly feel guilty that I feel that way. God has blessed me beyond what I ever deserved, so why do I find myself searching for more?
I guess that's the million dollar question.
Good Night! Enjoy today June 27, it's the only one you will ever get!
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Some times you just gotta write...
Sometimes when I am not sure what path to take it helps me just to sit down and start writing. These are the times where I eventually go back and read through and wonder what in the world I was talking about at the time, but it never fails to help me through whatever it is I am going through. Crazy thing about it is.. when I am not writing, that is usually when stuff is going very wrong in my head. Not necessarily in my life, but so much stuff is rolling around in my head that I have trouble picking through and managing it.
Anyone who knows me well, knows that I am not the type of person to sit down and read a novel. I read things that interest me, but things that I am told I have to read kind of appeal to me like fingernails on a chalkboard. Most of the time if I don't choose the reading material, it is somehow put into my lap and I have no choice but to read it. Almost like I was meant to read it... I know I know corny right? Don't laugh just yet.. yesterday my daughter and I were talking and just kinda being silly and surfing around on the internet and I happened upon this, http://christinekane.com/blog/you-teach-people-how-to-treat-you/ . It's a blog by Christine Kane called (you guessed it) You Teach People How to Treat You. Now what it so "ironic" about this is that a friend of mine had just made the same statement late the night before. So since the blog was placed in my lap, I read it.
It is a GREAT blog that talks about how you have some control over how you are treated by the way you allow people to treat you. That is really not news to me. I have known that for a long time, but it goes into some other stuff that hit me right in the gut. First, that you have to know what you want. Check! I got that down. I know exactly what I want! Yay me, right? BUT then it goes on to say, you have to set your boundaries and "honor and practice" making use of thost boundaries. Hmm.. OK hold the Yay :( I don't really do that. AND yep she was good enough to anwer my question as to why I don't really do that -> are you ready for it? "The biggest risk involved in teaching people how to treat you is the risk that some of them might go away." I don't like to lose people that I have taken a risk on and let myself care about. It hurts and I just don't like it!
So what do I tend to do? Not let myself get into many deep and meaningful relationships. Don't get me wrong, I care about people. I love people for the most part. I just don't often take the time to truly get to know them on a deeper level. Why? Because I don't like to get hurt. AND what's even more crazy about it is that I tend to choose people to try to care about on that level who don't really care the same way for me. I guess secretly I like to know the end result. Me caring about someone who doesn't return my feelings = eventually not having that person in my life.
One day maybe I will get it all figured out.. for now I am going to stop writing, because I choose that and promise myself that tomorrow (or tonight) I will write again.
Enjoy today, June 12, 2010, it's the only one you will ever get!
Anyone who knows me well, knows that I am not the type of person to sit down and read a novel. I read things that interest me, but things that I am told I have to read kind of appeal to me like fingernails on a chalkboard. Most of the time if I don't choose the reading material, it is somehow put into my lap and I have no choice but to read it. Almost like I was meant to read it... I know I know corny right? Don't laugh just yet.. yesterday my daughter and I were talking and just kinda being silly and surfing around on the internet and I happened upon this, http://christinekane.com/blog/you-teach-people-how-to-treat-you/ . It's a blog by Christine Kane called (you guessed it) You Teach People How to Treat You. Now what it so "ironic" about this is that a friend of mine had just made the same statement late the night before. So since the blog was placed in my lap, I read it.
It is a GREAT blog that talks about how you have some control over how you are treated by the way you allow people to treat you. That is really not news to me. I have known that for a long time, but it goes into some other stuff that hit me right in the gut. First, that you have to know what you want. Check! I got that down. I know exactly what I want! Yay me, right? BUT then it goes on to say, you have to set your boundaries and "honor and practice" making use of thost boundaries. Hmm.. OK hold the Yay :( I don't really do that. AND yep she was good enough to anwer my question as to why I don't really do that -> are you ready for it? "The biggest risk involved in teaching people how to treat you is the risk that some of them might go away." I don't like to lose people that I have taken a risk on and let myself care about. It hurts and I just don't like it!
So what do I tend to do? Not let myself get into many deep and meaningful relationships. Don't get me wrong, I care about people. I love people for the most part. I just don't often take the time to truly get to know them on a deeper level. Why? Because I don't like to get hurt. AND what's even more crazy about it is that I tend to choose people to try to care about on that level who don't really care the same way for me. I guess secretly I like to know the end result. Me caring about someone who doesn't return my feelings = eventually not having that person in my life.
One day maybe I will get it all figured out.. for now I am going to stop writing, because I choose that and promise myself that tomorrow (or tonight) I will write again.
Enjoy today, June 12, 2010, it's the only one you will ever get!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Ready for the snow to go away!
My favorite time of year is Summer! I know most people don't like the heat, but since I love the water, I love the summer!
When I was younger I used to dream of living in a warm climate close to the ocean. Great idea right? Well yeah, but I am afraid of getting in the ocean.
I was talking to my daugher the other day and we were talking about just that subject. She asked me what I wanted to do when I was little, and it led on to where I wanted live. When I answered by the ocean, she was not one bit surprised. She just asked one question, "Why don't you live by the ocean then?" Funny that I have never been asked that question before. I had to think about it for a minute. AND I gave the dumbest answer (but most honest answer I could think of) "fear."
The "what if" factor was huge on this one. I have stayed close to home because "what if" something happened and I needed my family. I don't go into the ocean because "what if" a shark is in there. I don't try something new because "what if" I fail.
To me that was embarassing.. so I changed things up a little bit.. What if I choose to take a chance right now? and here's a crazy thought.. What if it works out? Wow! Now there's a thought. How hypocritical I felt encouraging my kids to go out on a limb and here I was standing on the shore.
Yes I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. My regrets are few and for that I am thankful! God has blessed me in so many way.. but God has also blessed me with a strong will. This summer we are going to the ocean and I am determined to jump in. Maybe, God willing, I will eventually live by the ocean, but for now I am just giong to live my own advice and stop living in fear.
OK- That was my ramble for the day!
Enjoy today (Valentine's Day) Feburary 14, 2010- it's the only one you will ever get!
Rebekah
When I was younger I used to dream of living in a warm climate close to the ocean. Great idea right? Well yeah, but I am afraid of getting in the ocean.
I was talking to my daugher the other day and we were talking about just that subject. She asked me what I wanted to do when I was little, and it led on to where I wanted live. When I answered by the ocean, she was not one bit surprised. She just asked one question, "Why don't you live by the ocean then?" Funny that I have never been asked that question before. I had to think about it for a minute. AND I gave the dumbest answer (but most honest answer I could think of) "fear."
The "what if" factor was huge on this one. I have stayed close to home because "what if" something happened and I needed my family. I don't go into the ocean because "what if" a shark is in there. I don't try something new because "what if" I fail.
To me that was embarassing.. so I changed things up a little bit.. What if I choose to take a chance right now? and here's a crazy thought.. What if it works out? Wow! Now there's a thought. How hypocritical I felt encouraging my kids to go out on a limb and here I was standing on the shore.
Yes I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. My regrets are few and for that I am thankful! God has blessed me in so many way.. but God has also blessed me with a strong will. This summer we are going to the ocean and I am determined to jump in. Maybe, God willing, I will eventually live by the ocean, but for now I am just giong to live my own advice and stop living in fear.
OK- That was my ramble for the day!
Enjoy today (Valentine's Day) Feburary 14, 2010- it's the only one you will ever get!
Rebekah
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