Denial - We all do it to some extent- Why? I would love to say that I never make excuses, but that would be a lie. I believe myself to be a fairly decent person. When I am wrong I admit it. If I hurt someone I apologize. BUT though I may not want to admit it, I have been in denial about things on more than one occasion.
My thought is that maybe we need denial in our to some extent. Maybe it allows us some degree of comfort. I don't know. I definitely don't like that thought, but I believe it's true. We need denial in order to deal with certain things until the day comes that we are ready to deal with the reality of what happened. It saves us from an overwhelming amount of pain.
Don't get me wrong, I believe whole-heartedly that God is there with me no matter what I go through. I believe that he will never allow me to go through something that I can't handle. I also believe that every time I have been hurt I go through a period of denial until I can get to a point of understanding. Most times I end up blaming myself... ANYWAY- Not sure where this one was going.. just felt like writing. Anyone else have any opinions on this?
I am going to finish off my day hanging out with my amazing kids!! Enjoy today March 27, 2011, it's the only one you will ever get! :)
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
WOW!
WOW! The past few weeks have been CraZy! People have come into my life, and they have gone out of my life. BUT the ones who truly love me are still hanging around. I moved into my new house… (I absolutely LOVE it by the way!) It’s funny how a change in environment can change your whole perception. My 7-year old has even been coming to me to brush her hair. Normally, I have to chase her around the house and hold her down. LOL It’s been a long sometimes hard road, but we have finally found our niche.
The kids are doing well in school and making friends. Tony’s doing well in Martial Arts and is about to earn his first belt ( I can’t remember what color.) Cydney is running track and has earned 6 medals in the past 2 meets. Shelby is playing softball. She should have a great year because she has a pretty awesome coach! ;)
No matter what has happened in my life the one thing I have never doubted was that God was with me all the way! He’s been there even during the times I haven’t; let that comment marinate for a minute.
“For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways.”
Psalm 91:11 (NIV)
Enjoy today, March 22, 2011- I know I am! It’s the only one I will ever get!
The kids are doing well in school and making friends. Tony’s doing well in Martial Arts and is about to earn his first belt ( I can’t remember what color.) Cydney is running track and has earned 6 medals in the past 2 meets. Shelby is playing softball. She should have a great year because she has a pretty awesome coach! ;)
No matter what has happened in my life the one thing I have never doubted was that God was with me all the way! He’s been there even during the times I haven’t; let that comment marinate for a minute.
“For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways.”
Psalm 91:11 (NIV)
Enjoy today, March 22, 2011- I know I am! It’s the only one I will ever get!
Thursday, March 3, 2011
(Jeremiah 29:13) What's that all about?
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:13)
When I read this in my Bible I had to sit back a minute and just meditate on it. I was very taken back by it. I guess because I have lived the better part of my life “searching” for something. I never knew what I was searching for; I just knew that something was missing. It wasn’t until recently that I figured out what the something was.. God!
Now I have always known God. AND I have always loved God. AND I have always tried to make choices that would be pleasing to God. BUT I wasn’t seeking Him with all of my heart. It may be easy for some people and that’s great, but for me it’s difficult at times.
Isn’t it kind of like this for everything though? I mean if something is important to you, you go after it, but you never fully reach your full potential unless you go after it with all of your heart.
I have a feeling I will be writing on this subject again.
On another note:
I had my students come up with quotes. They could be about anything they felt helped them describe a positive emotion. Here are a few of the quotes that they came up with. I don’t have who said them, because this wasn’t that kind of assignment and it’s not that kind of class. They were just told to look for quotes that reach out and grab them.
“Time heals what reason cannot”
“In the absence of love, there is nothing worth fighting for”
“Absence makes the heart grow fonder”
“Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it”
“The opposite of love is not hate; it's indifference”
“You don't love a woman because she is beautiful; she is beautiful because you love her”
“You call it madness, but I call it love”
Now the majority of my class is 15-16 year old girls. Which may seem obvious by their choice of quotes, but the guys put in on this too. What I find interesting was that they were all in agreement that when you are talking about love/emotions things seem super confusing. My favorite comment was.. “If time heals and makes you forget how can absence make the heart grow fonder?” That is a very valid question. I think it’s safe to say that the amount of absence is relevant for both quotes.
All of what I blog about comes from my day to day life. What happens to me in my own little world. What is funny is that a lot of what I blog comes from the fact that I have the same type of questions about life that 15-16 year olds have. I have more experience than they do, but I certainly don’t have all of the answers.
When I read this in my Bible I had to sit back a minute and just meditate on it. I was very taken back by it. I guess because I have lived the better part of my life “searching” for something. I never knew what I was searching for; I just knew that something was missing. It wasn’t until recently that I figured out what the something was.. God!
Now I have always known God. AND I have always loved God. AND I have always tried to make choices that would be pleasing to God. BUT I wasn’t seeking Him with all of my heart. It may be easy for some people and that’s great, but for me it’s difficult at times.
Isn’t it kind of like this for everything though? I mean if something is important to you, you go after it, but you never fully reach your full potential unless you go after it with all of your heart.
I have a feeling I will be writing on this subject again.
On another note:
I had my students come up with quotes. They could be about anything they felt helped them describe a positive emotion. Here are a few of the quotes that they came up with. I don’t have who said them, because this wasn’t that kind of assignment and it’s not that kind of class. They were just told to look for quotes that reach out and grab them.
“Time heals what reason cannot”
“In the absence of love, there is nothing worth fighting for”
“Absence makes the heart grow fonder”
“Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it”
“The opposite of love is not hate; it's indifference”
“You don't love a woman because she is beautiful; she is beautiful because you love her”
“You call it madness, but I call it love”
Now the majority of my class is 15-16 year old girls. Which may seem obvious by their choice of quotes, but the guys put in on this too. What I find interesting was that they were all in agreement that when you are talking about love/emotions things seem super confusing. My favorite comment was.. “If time heals and makes you forget how can absence make the heart grow fonder?” That is a very valid question. I think it’s safe to say that the amount of absence is relevant for both quotes.
All of what I blog about comes from my day to day life. What happens to me in my own little world. What is funny is that a lot of what I blog comes from the fact that I have the same type of questions about life that 15-16 year olds have. I have more experience than they do, but I certainly don’t have all of the answers.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:13)
More coming on this one...
More coming on this one...
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
My VERSE of the WEEK!!
James 1:3-4 (New King James Version)
3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.
3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Am I the only one?
It’s Monday.. It’s not a bad day-- It’s just a Monday. Ever wonder if you were meant for more? Please tell me that I am not the only one. I have been thinking a lot lately about what it is I want in life. I am pretty sure it’s probably close to what everyone else wants in life… Family, A job I enjoy, home, stability, happiness, love.. And truth is I have that.
Last Sunday the preacher spoke about the importance of marriage. My oldest daughter looked at me several times while we were in the service. It was obvious she had something on her mind. So I wasn’t surprised when she asked me if I was “OK” after church. I was fine of course, but she was worried that what the preacher said would make me feel bad.
Let me clarify.. she thought that I would feel bad not because she thinks I was wrong for being divorced, but because he talked so much about how people are born with a desire to be with someone. She doesn’t want me to be alone. I tried to explain to her that I am going to be fine no matter what. That no matter what my situation ends up being, I will never actually be alone. BUT she is 15 sooo…
Life is so contradictory! We crave companionship, but are supposed to be patient. We are supposed to be patient, but play an active role in achieving our goals. We are allowed to love, but forced to deal with free will. Am I the only one who just doesn’t get it?
Be content today, February 28, 2011. It’s the only one you will ever get!
Last Sunday the preacher spoke about the importance of marriage. My oldest daughter looked at me several times while we were in the service. It was obvious she had something on her mind. So I wasn’t surprised when she asked me if I was “OK” after church. I was fine of course, but she was worried that what the preacher said would make me feel bad.
Let me clarify.. she thought that I would feel bad not because she thinks I was wrong for being divorced, but because he talked so much about how people are born with a desire to be with someone. She doesn’t want me to be alone. I tried to explain to her that I am going to be fine no matter what. That no matter what my situation ends up being, I will never actually be alone. BUT she is 15 sooo…
Life is so contradictory! We crave companionship, but are supposed to be patient. We are supposed to be patient, but play an active role in achieving our goals. We are allowed to love, but forced to deal with free will. Am I the only one who just doesn’t get it?
Be content today, February 28, 2011. It’s the only one you will ever get!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Balance…
Something was just brought to my attention. It’s one of those things that I have had an opinion about for a very long time, but all it too was one simple conversation to alter my way of thinking. Crazy huh?
I have always believed that balance in life meant that you had to have good things and bad things in your life. Let me try and explain. If your family was in good health, your finances are going well, and you enjoyed your profession, your personal life would not be good. I feel like I am as clear as mud on this one. Basically I have pretty much always felt that no one could really have it all.
My family amazes me on a daily basis. I have the most fabulous kids on the planet! I have great friends. I have a job I enjoy. AND I am buying a new house! All wonderful things… I am content in those areas of my life. Because I am so happy with those things, I have a tendency to neglect my personal life. I settle for what ever is given to me because I have always felt that if I prayed for and hoped for someone to come in my life and be there for me that I would seem selfish and un appreciative of the Blessings that are already present. I have always felt guilty for wanting more.
No one has ever questioned my way of thinking. This is partly because I am not all that open to talking about things like that, and partly because me thinking that way is beneficial to others in a lot of ways. If I believe that it’s selfish to want to be treated well then people who choose to take advantage of that will. Truth is people have been doing just that for a very long time. I think it’s about time for a change.
Sometimes change is a bad thing. This time change is a good thing!
That’s all I have on this one. I may write more later, but for now enjoy today February 24, 2011! I am.
I have always believed that balance in life meant that you had to have good things and bad things in your life. Let me try and explain. If your family was in good health, your finances are going well, and you enjoyed your profession, your personal life would not be good. I feel like I am as clear as mud on this one. Basically I have pretty much always felt that no one could really have it all.
My family amazes me on a daily basis. I have the most fabulous kids on the planet! I have great friends. I have a job I enjoy. AND I am buying a new house! All wonderful things… I am content in those areas of my life. Because I am so happy with those things, I have a tendency to neglect my personal life. I settle for what ever is given to me because I have always felt that if I prayed for and hoped for someone to come in my life and be there for me that I would seem selfish and un appreciative of the Blessings that are already present. I have always felt guilty for wanting more.
No one has ever questioned my way of thinking. This is partly because I am not all that open to talking about things like that, and partly because me thinking that way is beneficial to others in a lot of ways. If I believe that it’s selfish to want to be treated well then people who choose to take advantage of that will. Truth is people have been doing just that for a very long time. I think it’s about time for a change.
Sometimes change is a bad thing. This time change is a good thing!
That’s all I have on this one. I may write more later, but for now enjoy today February 24, 2011! I am.
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