Decision day is next weekend... AND I don't know what to do. :( I can't stand not having all of the answers. Crazy when your head and your heart are in conflict! I need some major help on this one. I have been praying and praying and searching for answers, and even though I feel like I know what to do in my head, I can't seem to get my heart to agree.
Bout to give up and just let things land where ever they fall. Sometimes even Super Woman needs a break! Thinking I'm gonna take a break before I break. Yeah I know this post is out there and you probably have no idea what I am talking about, but I just needed to write. Why do somethings come so easy, but other things have to be so dang hard!
"Unsettled" that's how I feel right now and I have to say, I don't like it one bit! :(
I am still very much appreciating the day June (now 5th because I can't sleep) 2011, because I know it's the only one I will ever get!
Good night ya'll! Wish me love! <3
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Sunday, June 5, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Guilt...
Why do we feel guilty? OK even better question... Why do we feel guilt about things that we have nothing to feel guilty about? I am all about taking ownership in things, but my problem is that I take ownership in everything. I allow myself to feel bad about coulda, woulda, shoulda, stuff. I will write more later.. just wanted to start this one so that I could come back to it.
That's what's on my mind today 4/5/11 (My Dad's Birthday!!!!)
That's what's on my mind today 4/5/11 (My Dad's Birthday!!!!)
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Denial
Denial - We all do it to some extent- Why? I would love to say that I never make excuses, but that would be a lie. I believe myself to be a fairly decent person. When I am wrong I admit it. If I hurt someone I apologize. BUT though I may not want to admit it, I have been in denial about things on more than one occasion.
My thought is that maybe we need denial in our to some extent. Maybe it allows us some degree of comfort. I don't know. I definitely don't like that thought, but I believe it's true. We need denial in order to deal with certain things until the day comes that we are ready to deal with the reality of what happened. It saves us from an overwhelming amount of pain.
Don't get me wrong, I believe whole-heartedly that God is there with me no matter what I go through. I believe that he will never allow me to go through something that I can't handle. I also believe that every time I have been hurt I go through a period of denial until I can get to a point of understanding. Most times I end up blaming myself... ANYWAY- Not sure where this one was going.. just felt like writing. Anyone else have any opinions on this?
I am going to finish off my day hanging out with my amazing kids!! Enjoy today March 27, 2011, it's the only one you will ever get! :)
My thought is that maybe we need denial in our to some extent. Maybe it allows us some degree of comfort. I don't know. I definitely don't like that thought, but I believe it's true. We need denial in order to deal with certain things until the day comes that we are ready to deal with the reality of what happened. It saves us from an overwhelming amount of pain.
Don't get me wrong, I believe whole-heartedly that God is there with me no matter what I go through. I believe that he will never allow me to go through something that I can't handle. I also believe that every time I have been hurt I go through a period of denial until I can get to a point of understanding. Most times I end up blaming myself... ANYWAY- Not sure where this one was going.. just felt like writing. Anyone else have any opinions on this?
I am going to finish off my day hanging out with my amazing kids!! Enjoy today March 27, 2011, it's the only one you will ever get! :)
Thursday, March 3, 2011
(Jeremiah 29:13) What's that all about?
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:13)
When I read this in my Bible I had to sit back a minute and just meditate on it. I was very taken back by it. I guess because I have lived the better part of my life “searching” for something. I never knew what I was searching for; I just knew that something was missing. It wasn’t until recently that I figured out what the something was.. God!
Now I have always known God. AND I have always loved God. AND I have always tried to make choices that would be pleasing to God. BUT I wasn’t seeking Him with all of my heart. It may be easy for some people and that’s great, but for me it’s difficult at times.
Isn’t it kind of like this for everything though? I mean if something is important to you, you go after it, but you never fully reach your full potential unless you go after it with all of your heart.
I have a feeling I will be writing on this subject again.
On another note:
I had my students come up with quotes. They could be about anything they felt helped them describe a positive emotion. Here are a few of the quotes that they came up with. I don’t have who said them, because this wasn’t that kind of assignment and it’s not that kind of class. They were just told to look for quotes that reach out and grab them.
“Time heals what reason cannot”
“In the absence of love, there is nothing worth fighting for”
“Absence makes the heart grow fonder”
“Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it”
“The opposite of love is not hate; it's indifference”
“You don't love a woman because she is beautiful; she is beautiful because you love her”
“You call it madness, but I call it love”
Now the majority of my class is 15-16 year old girls. Which may seem obvious by their choice of quotes, but the guys put in on this too. What I find interesting was that they were all in agreement that when you are talking about love/emotions things seem super confusing. My favorite comment was.. “If time heals and makes you forget how can absence make the heart grow fonder?” That is a very valid question. I think it’s safe to say that the amount of absence is relevant for both quotes.
All of what I blog about comes from my day to day life. What happens to me in my own little world. What is funny is that a lot of what I blog comes from the fact that I have the same type of questions about life that 15-16 year olds have. I have more experience than they do, but I certainly don’t have all of the answers.
When I read this in my Bible I had to sit back a minute and just meditate on it. I was very taken back by it. I guess because I have lived the better part of my life “searching” for something. I never knew what I was searching for; I just knew that something was missing. It wasn’t until recently that I figured out what the something was.. God!
Now I have always known God. AND I have always loved God. AND I have always tried to make choices that would be pleasing to God. BUT I wasn’t seeking Him with all of my heart. It may be easy for some people and that’s great, but for me it’s difficult at times.
Isn’t it kind of like this for everything though? I mean if something is important to you, you go after it, but you never fully reach your full potential unless you go after it with all of your heart.
I have a feeling I will be writing on this subject again.
On another note:
I had my students come up with quotes. They could be about anything they felt helped them describe a positive emotion. Here are a few of the quotes that they came up with. I don’t have who said them, because this wasn’t that kind of assignment and it’s not that kind of class. They were just told to look for quotes that reach out and grab them.
“Time heals what reason cannot”
“In the absence of love, there is nothing worth fighting for”
“Absence makes the heart grow fonder”
“Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it”
“The opposite of love is not hate; it's indifference”
“You don't love a woman because she is beautiful; she is beautiful because you love her”
“You call it madness, but I call it love”
Now the majority of my class is 15-16 year old girls. Which may seem obvious by their choice of quotes, but the guys put in on this too. What I find interesting was that they were all in agreement that when you are talking about love/emotions things seem super confusing. My favorite comment was.. “If time heals and makes you forget how can absence make the heart grow fonder?” That is a very valid question. I think it’s safe to say that the amount of absence is relevant for both quotes.
All of what I blog about comes from my day to day life. What happens to me in my own little world. What is funny is that a lot of what I blog comes from the fact that I have the same type of questions about life that 15-16 year olds have. I have more experience than they do, but I certainly don’t have all of the answers.
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