Deep breath, ok here I go!

I have been doing the P90x stuff.  While I have not mastered it just yet, I can get through them.  So I kind of have my work out plan going.  I have spent the past week trying to limit the food I take in.  Yeah we still had pizza night, but I only ate 1 piece.  (THAT WAS HARD!)  NO fried food!  More veggies! Still get my fruit, YAY! AND Tons and Tons of water!  Let's see where I can get in 4 weeks.  

Oh yeah..  2 more things I am going to do:  

1) Facebook on the weekends only - so if I am not responding to you don't get offended. Shoot be old fashioned and text me or call me instead!

2) My phone is going in the living room to charge after 11:00PM.  The main reason for this is that I have developed an unhealthy addiction to my phone.  Always jumping up to get it when it goes off.  Even if it goes off in the middle of the night.  If it is in the other room, I know my lazy butt is not going to get up and go get it.   

Now if later today I am feeling super brave I may post a "start" pic so that you can see if I am getting anywhere with this.  Tips, ideas, suggestions, praise, or constructive criticism

Deep breath, ok here I go!

How do you know when it’s time to let go?

How do you know when it’s time to let go?

Just curious… I am a bit of a fighter by nature. Any one who knows my history knows that letting go is an obvious weakness of mine. I was raised never to give up on the people you love. What happens though when they give up on you? Hmmmm… food for thought.   Advice? Words of wisdom? 

Just what’s on my mind today, April 22, 2011

Today is a good day!

Hey- Hey! I am feeling really good today! Crazy how that works, huh? One day you feel like you don’t want to get out of bed and the next you are on top of the world. What made me feel so good today..? Well nothing out of the ordinary. I woke up after tossing and turning and staring at the ceiling fan most of the night. I got dressed and ready for work. Got my kids up and ready to go. Noticed that I didn’t finish the laundry and the kitchen cabinets could have been wiped off better.

I got to school just pretty much like normal and had to immediately deal with a run away and another potentially “bad” situation. More paper work, more parent / police contact; not really the makings of a good day.. unless I can just realize that that’s my life and even though on the outside looking in, my life doesn’t look fabulous to most, my life is pretty great to me! No I don’t have a significant other to wake up to everyday, but I don’t have a significant other to answer to every day either. AND I do have 3 amazing kiddos to wake up to! Some months we live pay check to pay check, but other months we have a little extra cash to play with. My life is not hard- sometimes it’s a little stressful, but absolutely nothing that outweighs my BLESSINGS!

Sure I want more- who doesn’t? God didn’t create us to sit on our tails and watch the world go by.. But I am also very content with all of the amazing things that God has BLESSED me with right now. One day I will have it all… Someone will see me for who I am and LOVE me just because I am me. Until then I am going to keep working toward my goals and loving the life that I live today April 15, 2011!

My son and I have been P90X-ing it lately! He’s a pretty real trainer! I think he’s got a future in it for sure! We will see where I end up at by summer.. I want to wear a swim suit!  Maybe even dare I say it... a bikini! ;0p

Guilt...

Why do we feel guilty? OK even better question...  Why do we feel guilt about things that we have nothing to feel guilty about?  I am all about taking ownership in things, but my problem is that I take ownership in everything.  I allow myself to feel bad about coulda, woulda, shoulda, stuff.  I will write more later..  just wanted to start this one so that I could come back to it. 

That's what's on my mind today 4/5/11 (My Dad's Birthday!!!!)