Waited a long time for this...

I am just going to go ahead and come out with this....  I AM GOING TO CHICAGO TO WATCH A CUBS GAME AT WRIGLEY!!!  Whew-  I have waited a long time to be able to say that!  I am taking one of the 3 people who make my world turn- My beautiful 16 year old daughter Cydney Lynn!  I have never been so excited!  It's amazing what happens in your life if you just take a deep breath and jump sometimes!

I have spent many years worrying about other people- wishing that people would keep their promises to me and do the things that they say they will do, but I am finding out that it just doesn't work that way.  People say what they think you want to hear and then worry about their own agendas.  I have loved the Cubs since I was a little kid.  Someone made a promise to take me to a game years ago, but life (his life) got in the way and I never got to go.  So I am changing up how I do things...  if there is something I want to do, I am going to do it!  My son and I are already making plans to go to the Super Bowl for his 16th birthday!  I have a few years to save up ;)  AND my baby girl... she'll get to pick where she wants to go too!

I have always wanted to see a boardwalk--  I am taking a trip South to see one this summer!  NO more waiting on things just to find out that most people don't keep their word..  if I want it, I am going to find a way to make it happen!  

If you are in Chicago this week.. just look for me all decked out in my Cubs gear walking right beside one of the most beautiful girls in the world wearing her Yankees gear (booo)!  Tired of waiting for Superman!!  Why should I?  Especially when I feel like SUPERWOMAN!  Determined to make my dreams come true!

Enjoy today June 13, 2011- it's the only one you will ever get!  

*Wish me love!*

6/11/11 Kind of Sucked! LOL

Let me just go ahead and apologize for the title..  I couldn't think of a better word.

Let me explain.  I  have been having dreams about 6/11/11 for months.  My dream is the same and something really amazing happens to me..  but just the normal amazing things happened to me on 6/11/11.  I woke up!  Enjoyed my beautiful children!  Ate, danced, hugged, you know all of the normal stuff happened, but not that unusually amazing thing that I was looking for.  

Am I disappointed? Yeah I can't lie.  I think every girl dreams of a fairy tale, but will I survive?  Of course, I always have.  

As far as "D" (decision) Day..  I made up my mind.  First of all, I won Ms. Charlotte's challenge! I am not too sure that I gained a new habit or broke an old one, but I said my "mantra" everyday for 21 days!  Boo Yaaa!  I told you I would do it!  

Shelle's challenge though..  um no comment.  I Just have what I want in my head, and I don't know what it will take to get it out of there.   I act with my heart.  AND for some strange reason my heart is leading me one way that seems to cause me a ton of pain, but I am just not ready to give up yet.  I know I am crazy.  AND I may very well be wrong, but I want to see for myself. 

 My dad came to pick up my kids today and he was talking to me about a friend of mine.  He made the comment that my friend was a good person and that it was good to be driven, but that sometimes we get so focused on being driven that we forget why we are driving in the first place.  What happens when you get to your destination but forget why you went?  You tend to leave folks behind.  I guess  I feel like I am being left behind.  

Some dreams do come true... this one however didn't.  Yeah it does suck because it was a really great dream!  Maybe my trip to the Boardwalk will never happen..  maybe the lights will never be so bright at night..  and maybe my life will not change because of a short conversation, BUT I am going to continue to dream!  I continue to be more blessed than I could have ever asked!  I am still happy and loved!  AND I am still thankful for all that God has done for me!  

Enjoy today 6/12/11 (the day after) it's the only one you will ever get!  *Wish me LOVE! because I certainly wish it for you!*